Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Why I'm not excited to go to Colorado...

So I haven't been to church in two weeks. I know that's not good, but I also know my God understands. We do speak regularly and I have made it a daily habit to spend time in meditation reflecting and allowing him to guide me on my next path as well as work out some issues that could only be the result of my own mind trying to find solutions on it's own. I know how important it is to not forsake the assembly of the church, but if you've been like me lately and have not made it I'd just like to remind you that it's much more important to have a continual relationship with our father, rather than just the one on Sunday Mornings. So don't feel so bad, Daddy understands :) 

Anyhoo, my upcoming internship in Fort Collins, Colorado is swiftly approaching, I'll be working in the communications department of the USDA. Everyone keeps asking me if I'm excited, and of course I am happy and oh so blessed for this opportunity, but for some reason, I cannot identify with the specific word "excited." Usually for me excited mean, anxious, the feeling of "Oh I just can't wait",but now a days since I've been practicing being at peace, I also have a constant reminder in the form of a tattoo on my right forearm, I can't seem to feel excited anything more than the next.

Nowadays it seems like everything excites me. Th simple joys of life are what I draw my happiness from. Every breath I take is exciting, every smell I smell is exciting, every color I see, every texture I feel, and every move I make is exciting. The problem for me in the past has been that I was always waiting for the next big thing to make me feel happy. The issue with that is, once it comes and passes, I would just be left waiting for something new. 

The journey of being at peace for someone like me, who constantly has 1,000 thoughts and plans and to do list trapped in her brain, is to just be still. To be happy with nothing to do, to not be worried about the things I do have to do, and to not plan 21 more thing for myself to do before I can be happy. God has opened so many doors for me, that I never even knew I had the key to, so I figure if God is in control, maybe I should just sit back and enjoy not having to drive. 

When I am finally in Colorado I do believe that I'll feel excited, I've never seen this place before besides in pictures, I'll be staying at Colorado State University, working at a new job, making money, meeting people and doing all sorts of cool and "exciting" things. But until I get there, I'm just excited to be right here, in Orlando,Fl, smelling my mom cooking fried chicken in the kitchen, being surrounded by my crazy family, seeing palm trees that will soon be mountains, being at peace, and thanking God for blessing me with it.


Sunday, May 4, 2014

A message from Mt. Siani…

Evidence of my Growth
2 Corinthians 8:1-5
“Now, friends, I want to report on the surprising and generous ways in which God is working in the churches in Macedonia province. Fierce troubles came down on the people of those churches, pushing them to the very limit. The trial exposed their true colors: They were incredibly happy, though desperately poor. The pressure triggered something totally unexpected: an outpouring of pure and generous gifts. I was there and saw it for myself. They gave offerings of whatever they could—far more than they could afford!—pleading for the privilege of helping out in the relief of poor Christians.”
The message today, was about appreciating the everlasting Grace of God, and maintaining your joy, even in times of despair, in order to grow in the word, and share the abundance of life with others.

1.Trusting through trials
-Be anxious (worry) about nothing, have ye no faith in the father above to take care of all your needs? If you hold on to faith, I promise you are prepared
-Problems and circumstances are temporary, pain is apart of life, and suffering is optional.
-As soon as you claim to be living Holy, people will try and bring up you past and the enemy will see if your REALLY about that life!

2.Sew seeds of good grace and God will give back in abundance
-Something about finances, causes Christians to hoard and claim malicious or manipulative intent, only 3% of Christians tithe properly
-God does not need a tip, he is no waitress! He is the chef, the manager, and the CEO it’s not about the money, it’s about the giving.
-If your heart if filled with twisted intent and goals of money and power please believe God can see all of that.

3. Grace will prepare you for life, everyday it is renewed.
 - Grace is the elegance of life, it is the light that shines through you. 
 - No one controls the amount of joy you receive, don’t let anyone turn off your happiness, God said it is overflowing.
-Receive Gods abundance by acknowledging his works and letting him guide your path lead not on your own understanding.


Nothing is more dangerous than trying to control your own life an expecting it to work. God has set up a plan for us, and with every sin and angry or malicious thought we delay our divine destiny. Believing in God gives power that you are looking for in abundance, but that abundance is to be shared with others. God offers us comfort and strength in our weakness moments so the least we can do is trust him. God Bless You! Happy Sunday :)